Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Journey w Fam: God, Help Us


It's out of control, why can't you both stop? Destroying my every soul. I hear Mummy cry and I can see we are not a team. You disappointed voice, fills me with sorrow. You've made your choice, tears are shed, I can'y help it. We're a breaking thread, this isn't what I chose. Families are't like this. This isn't how it goes. A door slams shut, you're leaving now. I feel it in my gut, I hide away. It's safe to say, we're not okay. 


You left me hanging
In a place we built together,
Days filled with the sea breeze
And the waves of perpetual blue
Under the vermillion skies
Wishing it’ll all last forever
Are now
Gone.
Empty.
Left eternally stuck,
Inside picture frames
Of faces with happy smiles
And glorious days.
All that’s left now are
Plates flying across the house
Along with hurtful words
And forced concern
And empty love
Mom and Dad
And all I could do is watch
As my world begin
To fall apart.
The evergreen has turned to dust
And two people must turn to stones
Whose souls will forever fly—
To where hearts go and die.
People say that we’re okay
And we curve a smile to show a cry
But they’ll never really feel,
What is inside this “home” of ours.
A happy family, from known to unknown,
It’s a circle that turned to a point
It’s a point that became pointless
It’s line that ended.
Memories—they haunt you—
Over what you cannot undo.
And people still think you’re in a perfect world
Just like before
And nothing more.
What they don’t see is
The mask we all wear
To hide the ruined happiness—
A monster of coldness and despair—
Lurking inside our bleak walls.
Suffocating us,
Killing us,
In our sleep.
There was a sin committed
But never forgiven.
There is a sorrow clearly shown
But never felt.
There are two perfect people you’ve always loved
But now are off in two imperfect paths.
And you look the same
But feel so different.
There is a hole inside
That you can never ever fill again
It stops your hearts from beating as one
It locks all doors from being opened again.
And you try to knock
But nobody is answering
It’s time to let go
But you really couldn’t.
How do you let go of the people
Who were supposed to complete you?


Forever and always, please God.

Loved, Desiree. 



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